Living at Osho Nisarga, on a sunny morning cherishing tasty breakfast and hearty laughters, I wonder what would have been
plight of my life if Osho had not invited me to become Sanyasin and join the celebration!! It is difficult to imagine unconscious
life of the past where even celebrations are turned into a high stress event. Worse still will be life of a great renouncer; long
sad face with their being rotting in the hospital colored Ashrams (Dharmachatras).

Indian curry to continental breakfast, Superclean bungalows and heater if it gets cold, then there are celebrations for birthdays,
arrivals, departures; songs and music sitting in front of the fire place; daily doses of mystic rose with laughters, tears of fulfillment
can hardly be understood as way of a seeker by any traditional religious practitioners. On top of it, daily dynamic and three hours
of silence sitting taking Zorbas to the very abyss of silence defying traditional wisdom that silence and growth requires serious self torturing life!!

I keep remembering saying “All the way to heaven is heaven itself” or for that matter Ikkyu's peach trees and plum blossoms
on the path seem very much the case.

Sannyas used to be viewed once as renunciation. Must have been self-defeating trick from priests who wanted respect from
the society. What a joke! Seen sadhus tying themselves in chain or thousand one self torture...? and all these people are
supposedly on the journey of self liberation!

Probably it is a bigger renunciation if one is able to quit this blissful sanyas life and go back to the life of unconsciousness.
The budda, the silence and the bliss is anyway renounced but seems like Zorba is also incomplete as people hardly find
stress free time to cherish what they have got.

I remember story of Ramakrishna and the following words from Osho........


A man came once to Ramakrishna, and he was praising Ramakrishna very highly, and he was
touching Ramakrishna's feet again and again, and he was saying, "You are simply great -- you
have renounced the world. You are such a great man! How much you have renounced!"

Ramakrishna listened, laughed and said, "Wait! You are going too far -- the truth is just the
opposite."The man said, "What do you mean?"

Ramakrishna said, "I have not renounced anything -- you have renounced. You are a great man!"
The man said, "Are you kidding? I have renounced? I am a WORLDLY man -- I indulge in things,
a thousand and one greeds are there. I am very ambitious, I am very money-oriented. How can I be
called great? No, no -- you must be joking."

And Ramakrishna said, "No. There were two possibilities before me, and two were the possibilities
before you. You have chosen the world and renounced God: I have chosen God, renounced the world.

Who is the real renouncer? You have renounced the greater, more valuable, and chosen the meaningless.
And I have renounced the meaningless and chosen the valuable. If there is a great
diamond and a stone, you have chosen the stone and renounced the diamond; I have chosen the
diamond and renounced the stone -- and you call me a great man? a great man of renunciation? Have
you gone mad?! I am indulging in God. I have chosen the Precious One."

Yes, I too agree with Ramakrishna. Mahavir, Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, Saraha -- they have not
renounced. They have indulged, they have truly indulged. They have REALLY enjoyed -- they have
celebrated existence. We who are running after ordinary stones, we are the great renouncers